Major Fear: Dentist

I'm going to the dentist on Friday and it's fair to say that I am literally shitting myself.

I finally have made the appointment for 8.30 Friday 28th September.  I have such a fear that the dentist will want to rip all my teeth out so they scare they crap out of me.

Fingers crossed I still will have 32 (REAL) teeth on Friday evening and for the rest of my life

Fun At The Market

Today I woke up early and headed off to the farmer's market.  It was a lovely sunny day and I was able to pick up some wonderful treats.

All the produce was vibrant and fresh and begging to be brought,  fortunately I gave into temptation much to easily and ended up with a whole bounty of goods :) 

I brought Meyer Lemons, Swiss Chard,  Fennel,  Kale,  Avo's,  Pure Bacon and Monterey Jack Cheese. 

Swiss Chard and Curly Kale

Meyer Lemon and Fennel

Organic Monterey Jack Cheese and Pure Bacon

Lemons Lemons And More Lemons

Can you believe that I picked up all of these organic Meyer Lemons for 2.00 today at the farmers market I *heart* farmers markets they make my heart happy.

Amber Cakes and Maverick

My two babies who I adore more then anything Amber Cakes and Maverick James Gate.

The below pictures are taken at their holiday batch,  yup that's right my cats are soo cool that they travel!

Maverick James Gate

Amber Cakes Gate

Healthy Baking: Ginger Snaps and Blueberry Pancakes

Afternoon,

The other day I had the brilliant idea to attempt to cook two recipes that I've wanted to cook for a while now.

I tried my luck at two healthy recipes - Blueberry Pancakes and Ginger Snaps.  Both recipes are off my two favourite blogs Ittybitsofbalance.com and nourish-and-flourish.net.

My "Lightened Up Wheat-free Ginger Snaps"

Ginger Snaps close up

Brittany's Ginger Snaps ( http://ittybitsofbalance.com/2011/12/20/lightened-up-wheat-free-gingersnaps/ )

To my disappointment both recipes were a complete fail.  The ginger snaps were wheat-free and tasted slightly odd, they tasted pretty much like brown rice flour and water.  I'm sad that these didn't work for me as they looked so cute on Brittany's blog.

Sara's Blueberry Pancakes ( http://nourish-and-flourish.net/2012/06/wiaw-blueberry-cheesecake-pancakes/ )

As for the blueberry pancakes this was an awesome recipe!  The recipe is so healthy and the pancake batter is super tasty the problem is that because they contain almost zero fat you need to cook them in an awesome non-stick frying pan.

I attempted the recipe twice - the first time the whole mixture stuck to my horrible pan and I ended up just throwing the whole thing out.  The second time instead of frying the batter I baked it in a ramekin.  It came out awesome and so pretty.  Because I'm still getting use to taking pictures of everything I cook/bake I don't have a picture for my baked pancakes (sorry) but take it from me it looked sooo tasty and colourful.

Top 10 Plays On My Ipod

2pac - Open Fire

2pac - Staring Through My Rear view

2pac - My Block

2pac - Better Days

2pac - Keep Your Head Up

2pac - Hell For A Hustler

Katy Perry - Teenage Dream

George Harrison - As My Guitar Gently Sleeps

Led Zeppelin - Black Dog

Metallica - Until It Sleeps

No guesses as to who my favourite artist is.  I LOVE 2PAC more then anything!! In my opinion he is the most intelligent and amazing character.

Love one to Pac!

Worst Moment In My Life To Date

Four months ago my mum was rushed to hospital due to complications with her thyroids.  While in hospital she almost died because her blood pressure was so low but amazingly she overcome this like nothing had happened and was released a few days later.

Looking back that was one of the scariest moments of my life as I have never had anyone that I love so much and would die for ever be so close to death.  It was such a shock and made me release just how precious family really is.

I spent a few weeks with mum after she came out of hospital and it was great!  My whole family and I were so happy to have my mum alive and well and we thought that was the end of the scare..... until the doctors got hold of mum and told her that she has stomach cancer a week later.

Now my mum is the absolute strongest person I know and as gut wrenching as the news was for my family and myself to digest it was toughest for my mum and it was the first time I have ever seen my mum cry.

My whole family felt helpless and were in shock for a while it was hands down the worst news I have ever experienced.  From the beginning my mum always said she will get through this and was so unbelievably positive since day 1.  She started YouTubeing videos of the operation she would have to go through and all information about stomach cancer.

Mum went through 9weeks of Chemotherapy and an 11 hour operation (it was supposed to only be 6 hours) and although the past four months have been tough on mum she has done so amazing and keep 100% positive.  The oddest thing is you would never ever know she has cancer we keep forgetting as she has been so wonderful.  She looks better then she ever has and even mums personality has changed for the better she no longer stresses about the small things in life and apreicates everything.  Her outlook on life has become so positive.

We have had many complications on this journey with mum almost dying multiple times,  the Chemo leaking on the outside of mums body and other things like mum being discharged from hospital only to be admitted back in the next day.  All of this stuff has happened and my mum has gone through so much pain but always maintained to smile and keep positive.  The surgery was a success and all the cancer was taken from her stomach.  This was the best news ever all mum has is 9 more weeks of chemo and we can put this whole journey behind us.....

Except we can't.  Just as we start celebrating life without cancer mum goes back to the hospital today for a routine check-up and they have informed her that everything is great with her stomach cancer and she is healing wonderful and it no longer exists in the stomach but she now has cancer in her Lymph Nodes - cancer is in 6 out of the 9 Lymph Nodes.

Just when things start to look up they come crashing down.